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It’s been a while since my last post for reasons inevitable! Surprising to me how quickly my life has changed its track to another more complex one. I finally joined grad school, wrote my first MBA exam and now planning to move out to Scotland for the rest of my course 🙂 How smooth…

Well the moving out is not as easy! Yes of course cause it’s a huge move and majorly cause I’m having a conflict between emotional vs professional choices. It’s an everyday battle between Yes and No. People ask why even have No as an option? And they are right, to an extent. But me, not that easy to convince. I have a 1000 other concerns that don’t even weigh equivalent to the benefits of moving out to a new country and the exposure I would hold for the rest of my life. I am just not used to leaving my family and being all alone and missing them and my pet and and and… I now understand why dad used to get so emotional (disinterested) in travelling for work even if it was just for 2 days. I got my offer letter, scholarship grant, wrote not such a bad exam, and I’m still in my thinking process (basically stage 1 of making a decision).

“You’ve come so far, why do you need to rethink?!”, “This is an opportunity that will define your future”, “You’re gonna regret if you back out now!!” – Everything what my parents/friends/advisers have to say. I know they are a 100% right, but I really don’t know why I am still not convinced. Oh, and the best part is given the option of not going, I feel I am wasting my life not moving out. GODD!! It’s so complicated for me I have asked everyone a 100 times they are just exhausted even talking to me (lol). I have passed my due date for confirmation, got an extension, I haavvee to decide today! Its high time.. (my mental process everyday)… In the morning: I am going, it’s good for me in every way. And towards the evening: Why do I have to leave home, why can’t I just do it online?!.. (I’m literally worried about my mental health now).

You see how overwhelming and crazy this situation is for me. I am so lost and I still can’t make up my mind. Even at the end of this post my brain is basically on airplane mode! But all I know is whatever decision I finally make I will work out something productive for sure, wherever I am 🙂

~Shahana

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Pathways to your passion?

If only we had the formula to follow through our life… wouldn’t you think our decisions would be much easier to make?

Wouldn’t you wonder why can’t things be as easy as people say when they say “you know, life is just a simple process.. follow your passion and you will get through easily”.. OH, IF ONLY!

For me of course, I would say my fairy godmother used too many colors to paint my freaking pathway.

Like seriously, my pathways are always confused with too many interests.. they are always vague, varied and versatile (alliteration! ha! :).  I cannot see myself focus on ONE  thing at ONE time, and they just EXPIRE withing weeks of just entering my dreamy mind.

In any given comparison of people with people, I always saw two kinds of people on the pathway to their passion.

One, the extremely focused one.. will do one after the other since school, high school, college or university or work or masters and just on and on. Picks up long-term choices and aims to be committed and complete each of these long-term choices with their complete commitment.
Then there is another who takes the next step as it comes and when it comes. They aren’t focused on one specific pathway, but they just pick up interests along with their life, believe that whatever small choices they make in their pathway will somehow lead to a passion that they would love doing 5-6 years later.

While the first set of people, although they may be leading a standard yet continuing pathway, they are indeed used to being committed to one thing at a time, and so have fewer chances of feeling lost.

But unfortunately for the latter self, picking out those interests along the way isn’t as easy as it sounds, you could eventually lose interest and master the ability of not being able to stay committed to one interest for more than a certain period of time.

Although these are the process, ultimately we look at the end result isn’t it?.. we will only dream about how and has the process led to that stage where you feel like the pathway was worth the final stage, right?

But the problem is… which process of the pathway is RIGHT? – the focused, committed yet standard (maybe boring) pathway to your passion OR the let-it-come-as-it-comes, fun, yet risky pathway to where you want to be?

Well, I am the latter (and now I need to stalk my fairy godmother and see why she hasn’t color co-ordinated my pathways yet) .

All I can sum this up to is this following quote :

” You are the person who has to decide. Whether you’ll do it or toss it aside: You are the person who makes up you mind, whether you’ll lead or will linger behind. Whether you’ll try for the goal that’s afar. Or just be contented to stay where you are”
Edgar A, Guest

Our life, Our choice. Choosing a pathway to your passion by far depends only on us, and our choices. Whether it’s a short-term choice or long term, we can proceed in our pathway if we take the initiative to make these choices. There aren’t any fixed formulas to fill our lives with the passions we dream of.. its only made of the little choices we take the effort to make.

Roo.